After the initial fears and trepidations, I started to get a grip. After
all, at sixty, I’d had years to consider the inevitability of this. My
older sister had succumbed to the disease in 1987. She was originally
diagnosed in the mid-seventies when treatment techniques were still
drastic and devastating. But it had returned and she could not withstand
the second onslaught.
But this was 2007. So much progress had been made. And I was an
astrologer. Surely I could make some sense of it. So, using Solar
Fire, I ran my transits for the day of the biopsy. Well....it didn’t
look too good.
The Biopsy Transit Chart
There was transiting Jupiter, conjunct my South Node in the 4th
house, telling me that I was facing some kind of destiny involving
expansion. And there was Saturn, trudging through the 12th,
possibly indicating hospitalization, squaring my Moon, which could
definitely be the mammaries.
Mars traveling through my 9th
in opposition to natal Jupiter surely showed my trip for the
surgery. And although it was a little past orb, the most telling to me
was Chiron and all his wounds sitting in my 6th
house of illness, opposing my 12th house Pluto.
There was more, of course, but just from this much I could see that
it would be heavy-duty, that’s for sure. The trines and sextiles I took
to indicate the spiritual growth that would result from this
experience. Although I was still apprehensive, the biopsy itself was
very caring and also very high-tech, as I expected. Three days later, the
results were back:
Ductal Carcinoma In Situ. You will need surgery."
It was then that the ton of bricks hit. Needless to say, my life
started flashing before my eyes. That gnawing feeling made its presence
felt at the pit of my stomach. Surgery would be another month away. That
time was spent alternating between feeling that it was going to be okay
and that I was going to die tomorrow.
During that month, I also poured over the pathology report from the
biopsy (all you have to do is ask for a copy) and looked up all the
words on the internet. I soon learned that what I had was the best
possible, least damaging variety of cancer that I could possibly have. I
didn’t need chemo and I didn’t need to have lymph nodes removed. Not
only that, the outpouring of love and affection that came my way, even
from people I barely knew, was totally unexpected. Those trines surely
The Solar Return Chart
It was also about this time that I read
Kaye Shinker’s article in
Natterings about using conjunctions made by the transiting Sun in Solar Return charts as
an event timer. So I made a custom wheel format in Solar Fire to help me
plot out all the dates of my most recent Solar Return. What I found
The transiting Sun was conjunct the solar return Moon in the 5th
solar house on the day I met with my doctor to go over the initial
mammogram and was told there was something suspicious. I don’t really
see the connection with 5th house issues of creativity, children, or
love, but she was very sweet in the way she delivered the message.
The next conjunction was to my natal Moon in the 7th solar house the
day before the biopsy. My loving husband was there with me and was very
supportive and concerned, which certainly fits with the 7th house.
Then, two days before the lumpectomy, the transiting Sun was conjunct solar
return Pluto in the solar 8th house. Well, where else would surgery be? And
Pluto, of course, is ruler of the underworld. The anesthesia was
amazing! Out like a light and back again an hour later like nothing had
happened. Then off to a Thai food restaurant after starving all day. It
turned out that the tumor was non-invasive and only two millimeters
And while my solar year is not yet over, if all goes
according to plan, the Sun will be conjunct natal Venus in the solar 9th
house the day I start radiation. I don’t know for sure yet, but I’m
probably going to have to spend a couple of months in Seattle.
There was another thing in the solar return that Kay had not
specifically mentioned, but that I had read about years ago in Marion
March and Joan McEvers’ book,
The Only Way to...Learn About Tomorrow. They
spoke of the importance of the natal house that is rising in the Solar
Return chart. My natal 4th house was rising,indicating a lot of activity in what I
called "home and family". Indeed, I spent a lot of time in someone else's
home during my treatment and those who so generously provided it became like
family to me.
And finally, the solar return South
Node was conjunct the Ascendant, marking an issue of the past coming into being. After seeing transiting Jupiter conjunct the South
Node in my natal 4th, this sounded like a double dose of Destiny to me.
Oh, and one of my doctors told me that the definition of cancer is "uncontrolled growth".
I feel extremely lucky so far. (And that’s Jupiter too!)
This was originally written for publication
in NCGR's Natterings eMail Newsletter. It was published in November,
2007. As it turned out, I only needed to spend one week going for
radiation, twice a day. More Jupiter luck! Today, things are great. I am
back to doing what I enjoy, living life, sharing my knowledge and
teaching about the stars again.